My Recent Satori: No More Holding Back!

Yesterday my wife and I were in a major car accident. We got pretty slammed, but we’re ok, thank god. Today I’m trying to process the experience. We were in a taxi that crashed into a big truck at about 50 miles per hour, almost head on! It was intense. We had to crawl out the drivers door to get out of the smoke and debris!

So why did we attract this event and what is the teaching for me, in particular? I’ve been pondering this deeply today. Is it to be more grateful for my life? YES! To never take Sabrina for granted? YES! To be consciously aware of where ‘I am at’, at all times, even in a simple a taxicab ride? YES! To realize that our time on this planet is limited, and we can be taken away within a split second? YES! YES! YES!

It’s a lot to process … but it’s a truly invaluable gift. I am grateful.

So as I look at my life, my Dojo, my current opportunity to teach, all of my dedicated students … I have to wonder — I am holding back at all? When I do die … whenever that happens (and it will) I know I will have a chance to re-view how I have spent my life. I know that I don’t want to look back and feel that I could have been more total, more loving, more compassionate, more present. NO! I don’t want to miss … wait, I will not miss … all of the the amazing opportunities I have in my life. I want to look back at my life and feel a deep sense of satisfaction … I want to look back and know that I shared joy and love with others, all the way to the last breath.

What I’m feeling right [NOW] is that I can be more total in my life. I realize deeper that time is a limited asset! So right now I vow to you and to myself to go for it, more. I vow to be the best teacher, coach and student that I can be. I vow to be my best and help others to be their best.

So on that note … No More Holding Back! How about you? Do you need a car accident or are you ready to go for it more in your life? In Buddhism they say “the noble horse runs at the shadow of the whip”.

With gratitude for life,

Tristan